secrets

Baby! Don't tell anyone!!~



after bleaching....I like it. I'll do it again around next week.

suck my dick, massafakka.

today it had been said:
"what is school worth? who do we study for after all? 80% of what we learn is just bullshit we'll never need! when we leave school we'll immediately forget half of everything!"

true.

what the world needs these days aren't people who know how to solve simultaneous equations by drawing them or people who understand why n-heptane and bromine become white if you heat the lotion. fuck that.

geography is important to understand how the world works, how we live and why we live like that and why others don't. associated, economy and history. those three build a unit.

languages. always.

social studies. people living in a society need to know how societies and politics work.

that's it. of course sports and arts are important, too, but very much less, and NO ONE needs anything of what I've learned in maths in recent years.


and now you want me to sit down and study chemistry? forget it.

done!

so i finished the report! took me about...uhm....five to six hours. Guess it's quite good.

I'm hungry but I dont wanna go downstairs...

OF COURSE my father is pissed coz i missed school. He says if I can write the report i can also go to school, and if I'm sick now I will be sick tonight and cant attend the concert....
F U MAN! it's just a tease, of course it's easy to be cool at home and sick at school, you know that! i feel better when i'm home!

damn it. at least I'm finished.

sickening

I stayed at home.
Hopefully I'll finish the sucking report today or I'll be killed...

na...whatever.

EMBARRASSIIIIING!!!!!

OH MY GOD!!!

I wanna die it's so embarrassing.....

You know, I sometimes smoke at my bathroom's window and lately my mother found out and said "Your brother did that as well"

Well, and I just talked about cigs and smoking with my brother when we got home and I said "I know you also smoked at the bathroom's window" and he was like "of course, haha" and suddenly my father's voice came from upstairs "uhm, I home, guys...."

I was like SHIT and my brother laughed his fuckin ass off!! I'm screwed! He heard us talkin about everything!

aaah......no....

TOO MUCH WORK!

my brother called ~b
we'll meet around 7 pm to attend my mother's art exhibit.

I gotta write a report now...over five pages until Thursday morning and I got like no time at all...

I quitted rehearsal earlier. We had many technical problems and I couldnt stay longer....

wazzup.

and it touches my heart....

...more than any shallow words combined.

Aah, this song. Listening to it over and over and over again....

The live version from The Rose Trims Again is very good.

In few minutes Aiji will arrive to pick me up, so I gotta get ready quickly!

I ran outta cigarettes and money.....


This is Aiji and myself about two years ago. I like this one.
...but not as much as I like some newer pictures....

WAZZUP!

oops.

I got an allergic reaction to the crisps Rena bought on friday....

My lips are swollen and numb and feel strange!!......

Now I know how Uruha must feel, cough.

certainly

today my skills as a hair-dresser are challenged!

Ralli and my poor little self will get Rena some dreads....well more like....all-over dreads!

I've never done it before, Ralli never did, I never watched sb doing it...I have no clue how to do it.

Oh, it will work.

Laters!

heights

wanna guess what that is?





hah!
on the left we have the gazettos, on the right the despairs, and in the middle we have Moon and myself.



I marked all of our heights on my doorframe!~

it's cool....

i'm quite averaging, so it's okay. most of them are around 170 to 177, and I'm 173.
cm, of course.
dunno how much it is in inches.
ZERO is only 171!~ his blood type is.........ZERO!

you'll never guess Aoi's type. it's A! Wow!

Dunno about mine, maybe sth like AB.

I love this new piece...

old times#2

lately I've been listening to yami ni furu kiseki a lot when I'm on the road.

at home, it's mostly UROBOROS, but outside always over and over again the hella beautiful yami ni furu kiseki.

it itches!!~

come back to me. look at me. smile at me. don't say a word. you'll kill me if you do.

it's too late for a cigarette!!

no work tomorrow! Rena helped me, and today we're gonna do her dreads together with ralli! maybe I'll get one too....

treasures

wanna see my latest love?

http://www.jame-world.com/uk/articles-58197-biography-special-d-espairsray-part-3.html

It was a great pleasure reading through it, I'm very happy about all of the new stuff I got to know! Thanks and cookies to Yamiko and Jasy for the heard work! I appreciate it.

Saitama is near Tokyo so it was easy for ZERO to start a life there, Karyu lived in a backwater in Yamaguchi, it's like NOWHERE at all! Tsukasa's from Yamagata in Touhoku region (where Hizumi is told to be from), so I guess they're both from Yamagata, since they met through an ad in a newspaper.

It made me love them even more.

Anyways, I love Ride the Rockers. It's so funny, coz Reita and I tend to have the same preferences (even though we differ at the seme/uke parts...) and when I read the last chapter I was like: "Hey! I know that!"
Amused me.

FOOD!

cutie pie.

Olivia ruiz - j'envoie valser

She's cute....




The days I loved....

dearly beloved...

je....te....qui~tte.........pas.

help.

I can't stand it.

To describe my excistence, I just have to say " I can't stand it."

You get your ass kicked and spit in your face, but it doesnt make you stronger, it just pulls you even deeper.

MONEY RUNS AWAY FROM ME!!

MOTHERFUCKERS!!

The sick rockers of D'ESPAIRSRAY are going to satisfie us with 10+ (!!!!) shows in Europe this summer!!

It's like 200% sure that there will be 2 shows in Germany!!



This time...I promise it, ZERO, this time, you will look at me and I will not forget your face again and I will not forget how it feels to touch you and I will not forget the atmosphere you brought up.

This time I will make everything better, it's promised.....just promise to play for me.

back to april

server breakdown...

why is it suddenly raining?

I didnt sleep well and woke up a few times to check if Darling's still there.

I feel sick. Is it the hangover?

L8 was boring last night.

She's in the bathroom right now and I'm waiting for her to come to me.

I enjoy every second.

I's so freaking nervous, i'm sweating.

9:12 am. I'm not dressed or anything yet, and were about to go to the station ins 20 minutes. But I dont wanna get dressed until I get a message from her...otherwise I'd be too disappointed.

Last day!

So it's finally --- OVER---!!!

I dont wanna think about it too much right now. I will miss certain people, that's it.

I learned a lot, I saw a lot, and I've cried a lot, that's it.

My assessment is A,A,A,A,A,A,A,B. Fine.

I got so much work to do....but now it is time for teamspeak!!

last day?

tomorrow's the last time for me to work.

today many workers said goodbye to me, and after all I must say it's said that it's over. I won't see Steff anymore, and thats putting me down a bit. She was very friendly to me and without her, work would have been hell.

The leader told me my work was good and she wrote a positive assessment which is the best I could have asked for.

argh....I hate saying goodbye.