hwang TAE kyung-sshi...

...is not for drinking.

last exam was written today! well...just as an orally exam can be written, ne?

my top three wisdom patters of today:

1. Fabric is not factory, jesus christ.
2. Do not google "cauterization".
3. Sleep naked if you want to wake up tomorrow morning without being dried out.


ENNELL

I'm so shocked. I weigh 8 pounds more than I thought I would.

My parents were right....I'll go running now. I haven't been running for 2 weeks, I'll become fat by wasting my time in front of my computer.

booh

I feel very sorry for poor ZERO right now...I didn't know he was suffering this hard.

...



He is even more shortsighted than I am o.o

itaiiiii

mhkay, I'd like to change my order.

dont wanna be asian, at least for today MALE. ouchy........

no time, work to do.

if sum good-fairy will eva ask me wether i wanna becum male or asian id take asian as long as it aint chinese.

id crusli give sumth fo those...

queeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeer

Oh my grapefruit my head is spinning. at least I didn't pay for the five beers I had. manly. but since we entered the club at 10:30 pm five euros weren't really worth it...

but still gaylicious was absolutely gaylicious!! I know it's not a real reference, but what else shall I say?

Just one thing: of course I have seen lesbians before, but all of those random passerbys combined wouldn't make up the sum of gay girls I've met yesterday...there were like at least 70!

usually when I look around in a puplic bathroom in school for example it goes: straight, straight, straight, straight, gay. <- myself. not very pleasing...

and this time we kept chatting at the bathroom like girls use to do and I looked around like : gay, gay, gay, gay, gay, gay, bi, gay, gay, gay. can you find myself in that row?
no! coz we've been all equal! I felt at home, I belonged to them even though I didn't know them, and that feeling was worth the money in the end.
I will attend the party as often as I can. even if it's just for two hours, I simply wanna spend time with people similar to me. and maybe my darling will come with me one day, coz I missed her by my side.
and the club....it's a porn club. it's a club for sex. so she'll fit.

ENNELL!

bite me

damn it! seileen and the whole Tokyo Decadance people came to Essen last year!
Damnit it's like not more than 2 or 3 hours from my place!

But I wouldnt go anywhere...what would all the cybers say with some eroguro bitch among their holy lox 8D

nah...I want a piercing....

cut

she gives a fuck about what I told her earlier.

she is disrespectful, egoistic and insolent.

she embodies exactly the kind of person I hate.

ENNELL

the world is full of wonders

...and he is one indeed:



NEVER seen or heard anything his voice!

just nude.

I'm listening to SiSen's cereal killer. it's truely awesome, thrilling in my ears....

ah, somebody get me some cages, let's dance!!

must be really stabbing ears live...I'd be scared.

Turn the volume up...press play....ah this guy~!

fukaku fukaku nemuru kimi....

you're sleeping so much deeper, deeper and deeper than the deep blue sea.

I can't put into words...how much I wish to touch you right now

please live...even if it's just for this moment.

classical white

I fell in love - again!

Jusdt kidding.

Weekend is already over...gonna have dinner now and then call - SPOILER! - ...toffifee. ♥

ah, why can't I make her happy?

I'm crap....I hurt her day after day, and I don't know why or how, I don't know how to stop it or prevent it.
I don't wanna be doubting...

hatred&essence

So we all had a blast at Jonny's party.

Even though l'équipe lost, I met many guys - fans - downtown buying alcohol for their parties. While I tried to decide which wine to take, a young man asked me "You free tonight?" I told him no and he was like "Damnit!" I almost laughed at him, he was quite nice.
Later at the register on of his friends walked behind me to get some chewing gum and when he returned he walked past me conspicuously close and I had the feeling of some hand grabbing my ass...uhm yeah. Could be delusion. Or not.

Anyways I met great people at Jonny's and had nice conversations with Max and Selina and a guy whose name I forgot...and when we (meaning Rena and myself) were picked up we had to sit in the back of the transporter. Due to the lack of seats we just lay down, wrapped in a blanket and talked till we got home. It was very romantic, wasn't it Rena?

I got up at 8:30, don't ask me why...gotta work today. Uh.

ENNELL

PS: give me your suffering and sorrow voice, all this bitching and moaning...

saatiin.♥

I'm workin!

Say it like they do in japan!

SAAA....TIIIIN.....<3

once infection...

I am so addicted to my new hairstyle....and to Aoi's female side. I swear, this guy has no idea what he looks like.

I think Kai's and Reita's voices are calming...and I like how Reita says "zutto". And He calls himself "ore"...!

Fangirly ENNELL is back.

eyoo, wazzup nice weather.

I'm enjoying a cool coke right now!

Did you watch the match yesterday? four nil, could it be ANY better?
I seriously start believing that we might have a chance to...mh not win the challenge, but...be good.

IMMORTAL in my CD player once again!

I'll sell my soul...heart like a hole....

This one's for Karyu, the second-best lyricist of D'espairsRay's and the the sexiest living Vampire.



ENNELL

it's IMMORTAL

My keyboard is extraordinarily disgusting.

You wanna know what people like myself do at 2 am? Cutting their hair.
Honestly! I was frikkin tired and it took me over two hors, but I like it. The result can be seen below.

Rena bleached my hair succesfully, ne. I am as blonde as Hizumi's innocence, for real.






I will redo it next week since the cutting discovered some darker parts...but now the orange is like completely gone!

Next up:

IMMORTAL!

Dunno how many people I already told how awesome it is. I won't do it now, guess it's enough if I say:

The BEST this band ever created. Can't be topped.

...cause all of em are 100% SEME!

Damn, good one.

I made a wally! I love it:

Ah, I'm such a bitch, but not out of nothing.

What goes around, comes around, so fuckin watch your mouth.

Oh Lord, fucking screw you. I won't ran after you.

I will choke all of you down...

This post has the only reason to hide how dirty my mind is.

You wanna see what's on my mind right now?



Okay, you caught me...I'm funking work...

WHY? Why, fuck it, why does it hurt so much? Why does it still kill my sleep, my insides, why does it hurt so much to find out about all this stuff?

I'm shivering, I can't control myself. Ah, I lost her, finally it's all over.

Now that I don't belong to anybody nearby anymore, I'm acountable to none, and nobody can hurt me anymore.

I grew free...I achieved what I always wanted. Being all by myself.

Of course there's still a person left that could hurt me, but I don't have to worry about that since nothing is surer than what we have.

Actually I knew it long time ago...even though I didn't want to notice.

It was clear we couldn't make it anymore. We were lost.

Throwing away, giving to nothingness all the times we had may be a waste...but life changes, I don't have the fucking time wait for others.

There will be one more meeting. And then I'll be gone.

I won't let them down.

If they fall, I'll kill them for ruining everything she had.

She deserves more, much more than a bunch of whining fuckers about oh-so-unfair fans stabbing them in the back and leaving them alone with the ruined, fucked up and lost culture that VK turned out to be.

I musnt't let them down, I have to believe in what I used to love.

But I still hate all of them for they changes they have caused.

I hate changes...how am I supposed to walk through a live made of changes?




My love, we are free creatures. We dont't belong to anyone.

We're leaving here tonight
There's no need to tell anyone
They'd only hold us down.
So by the mornings light
We'll be half way to Anywhere
Where no one needs a reason.

victory

So I bought new shows today! Can't upload a pic as usual...but they're so cool! They look stunning.
http://www.victory.de/Victory/index2.php

I noticed I buy shoes like a guy.

I pick a good-looking shoe, try it on, say "mh yeah", and buy it. 15 minutes, coz I tried to look for another shoe, but this one was too perfect.

Then I did my first training in the park. I ran the small round, which has about 4 km, without a break. I was so fucking tired afterwards, I couldnt feel my legs anymore, but it felt good.
Confusing?
I was proud I made it.

And I studied for school, surprise.

The next three weeks are gonna be hard. German...Maths, French, Physics....

I am refusing nourishment, just for the record.

ROPE!!!

I made it!!

50!!

I got a pretty bad bruise on my wrist...

Rope Island is awesame, I'm looking forward to the many hours I will spend there.

This is pretty much the first thing you will see when you get to Rope.

amazed

wow! I found I platform that helps me with my dream's symbols:

The theft stands for neglect. It's true, I have neglected certain people recently, including myself.

The thief as a persons is difficult. I got robbed: unfaithful friends, which fits, since the people who were with me at first left me when the thieves popped up.
Later I stole what the thief had stolen from me: mental overload....

Doll: hopes and wishes, crude character.

The stream seems to be important...it was a small, shallow dark stream. it says: mentally and emotionally depleted, got things to clear up with.

most important: injustice. strong health.


In my dream...I went home with two old friends, but we didnt talk or anything. One friend fell, but stood up again. We went on...then I fell. I waited to check the stuff on the street which had caused my accident. (There were barbie dolls all over the place, and an Ipod and something like an IPhone among them). When I picked up the apple stuff, my so called friends went away, saying womething like "We need to go, we shouldnt stay here."

In the beginning I didnt care about them. But when they left me, I got angry and felt left-behind.
The platform says, what I felt in the dream equals reality.

Bull's eye.

thief

I really cant stop thinking about the dream I had last night, it's evry hard for me to figure out what the main symbols are.

Money.
A thief.
Injustice.
A stream.
Barbie dolls.
People I used to call friends.

I dont get it...

494949494949

finally! took me about 10hours or less, that's not very much....maybe, just maybe I'll meet Maren on monday telling her "FUCK YOU I made it to Rope Island!!"

But just maybe....about 4000 rear mobs, then I'll reach level 50. damn...50's like the small 70. and being 70 makes you tha king~

ENNELL!

thurday night

cooking with my brother and his girlfriend (who is more or less like my sister xD)

gotta go!

ENNELL

I feel like I'm turning into some strange kind of freak...and not even in a bad way.

one day the headset will accrue on my head...

repetition

my god my backbone hurts as hell!

I could scream in pain if I wasnt too lazy...

lunch!

ENNELL

in your face.

okay.

japanese people MAY look similar.

japanese men MAY look feminine.

and maybe you can really do a lot with makeup.

but say whatever the fuck you want...

THIS



















IS ONE AND THE SAME PERSON!

Bou has become beautiful :3

ENNELL

stop

almost forgot it!

this is my newest poster, I got it yesterday:















ENNELL

strange dreams

You know, yesterday I cooked...spaghetti. And now my stomach hurts, surprisingly.

Eating huge amounts of food right before sleeping gives you nightmares, that's probably why I dreamed I cut my hair.

Gosh, I didn't.

ENNELL

whooo

whoo, off to the dentist.

my parents left for three days, so the house is mine!

I look good today....like Cloud lol. The minimizer is doing its duty~

ENNELL

as usual.

I'm freakin pissed. I ordered IMMORTAL yesterday, made a prepayment over 5€ and fuckin lost the receipt.


Gotta drive downtown again.....

ENNELL