LOVE

Imagine...

A room, small space in comparision to the greatness of the earth...

Heat. Cool, if thinking of the fire's heat...

Noise. Screaming...shouting....yelling, crying, singing....such tiny sounds.

Yet so meaningfull.

A crowd, driven by energy..pure, sinful energy rushing through their bodies.

Flesh on flesh. Breathing. Heat.

Blood.

Rough passion....strong, sinful, endlessly pleasing...

Beauty.

Echoing sounds....music. Repeating the hate, the anger, the love, the fear, the willing to LIVE over and over again.

Screaming out your emotions

A glare out of hungry, shivery eyes, crashing into some other person's gloomy eyes.

Light it up.

Smile.

Jump.

motto

Look at me.





Just imagine

Goodbye

I love you.

the day of all days

http://maniasixty-nine.livejournal.com/6207.html

This post actually says everything.

Last preparations have been made or are a bout to be made. A feeling starts to grow, and it's the optimistic feeling that somehow with a bit of luck everything we hope for will work out.

I can't wait anymore~♪

Just let me be...no dirty tricks.....

I always feared this day.

I still find it hard to belive that this day has arrived.

All we can do is hope for this nightmare to end with waking up and not dying in sleep.

All the best for you. Please don't leave us.

set the third

Delicious!!!!!


Kanpai! We got Rena drunk a little, unfortunately not all the way....but her drunk self is interesting.
Ther's always a next time!


Coffee after a night of alcohol and sex games....


Can you see my reflection, Johnny?



What a wonderful sad and happy day that was.

setup le deuxieme

Wonderful and fascinating chalk landscapes.


big, a bit scary but yet beautiful and amazing.

two other amazing creatures:





"A decent meal!"


This morning's sunrise.

setup1 my birthday

My birthday table withh all ma loved goodies.




Isn't he just the utterly super cutes cat in the world?

Let's meet in our dreams.

above the skies

Just noticed he's very, very beautiful. All those three are.

Seeing them calms me in some way.

But we should avoid getting carried away by our feelings in order to avoid regrettable situations.

What's far stays far and should stay far.

So I'll remain in silence.

De La Rasphyxier et de l'abîme des bêtes appelées "jalousie".
Je me taire.

Countdown

Damnit, I missed the flight.

You better be alright my dears, or I'll spank you cute asses when you arrive at Europe. You're probably landing right now aren't you?

It's wonderful to say, espcially coz it is true: See you soon.

new start

Still didnt write about the wedding...

Seems like this year is gonna be tough. So many new and strict rules...

After school I dropped my cigarette into a huge puddle of mud! I hadn't even lit it! Of course I couldnt save it...

When I got home I found a note of DHL in my letterbox, so I drove all the way to the post office at the station to pick up my new shoes. Maybe if I had read it properly, I had noticed the little word "tomorrow".....So I'll pick them up TOMORROW.

De La Rasphyxier est arrivée.

whose holding my hand and caressing my heart

Thank your for your company.

9pm in germany, 9th of September in Japan, the number of today is 11.

Happy rocking aniversary, D'ESPAIRSRAY.



Stay as you are,

Keep what you have

And never stop going on.

You make us proud and prosperous, and we adore you and your work.
May all of your wishes come true, and may your music never stop making us feel blessed.
Until the ray of live runs out of time and fades away.

In supporting love

Nika

What a horrible night, thank god it is over.
First I dreamed I had coloured my hair reddish-violetgreen, the I dreamed of having a baby in a borading home where all my old classmates and some rapists lived....
Hm, the baby wasn't horrible actually...
But then I dreamed of Rena and her mom and blue umbrellas turning into guitars and enemy soldiers gathering in our city...I had to become a soldier, too, but my parents wanted to get away from all that and hide somewhere in the mountains....

As I am writing this I just woke up - luckily, coz I still got 10 minutes to go till KS.

De La Rasphyxier et de l'amour interminable.

success

He liked it!

It still doesn't feel good to give away my drawings...I know I once said I'd never give any of those away again, but without this occasion I never would have drawn it....

Gotta shower really quick now!

normal days

my parents returned yesterday and tomorrow's my father's birthday!

1. I eat again.

2. I planned to make a bookmark for the book i bought as my father's present, but yeah....it's become a bit to wide for being a book mark.



Took me about 4-5 hours...it was really hard. some party are blurred, i ran out of pencils, i got frustrated coz abstract drawings with my lines and points and shapes really isn't my thing, even though i love such pictures...
I started with some lead pencil drawings, but as soon as I used a black pencil for the final version, it got easier and actually made fun to add more and more deatils.

I hope he'll like it!

De La Rasphyxier et de la jeune fille ce que je suis encore á mon père. Joyeux Anniversaire.

taiiii

got a horrible headache again...I feel so dizzy and lightheaded, I could be drunk.
Just repaired the slot in my pants, now it looks like a scar!
I could throw up any minute...
my stomach is a total mess. The pain comes...and it goes.....now it's gone. But it'll come back soon, I can already feel it...uh.

Maybe it's beacuse....I didn't eat for uh....14 hours. mh.

I'll get dressed and buy something to eat....

to the lightest

Why does somebody who wrote a text message just seconds ago not answer his phone?? Explain yourself, Darling!

Haha, some hip-hip boys wasting their lifetime at the McDonalds shouted "NEXT!!" when I passed! That was cute.
Hey. They own me a dollar! Damnit, I should have said that....

+

Bob's Magic in orange!! I just had to buy them, they're orange!!

Oh, and I just found out the litte five-yeard-old from next door had been spying on me. His father asked him to find our where and when and in what order I deliver my newspapers....ehm yeah. Just heard how he told him his results.
Oh, he's too cute.

Bleaching starts NOW!

abgrund

I guess I'll do an "abyss" cover soon. Well not that soon, but maybe by the end of the year.
Gotta learn the lyrics by heart...get over a few rhythmical and japanese stressing problems...and get a feeling for the story behind the song, otherwise I won't be able to show feelings without loosing control.



I love this pic to death. Breakfast now, the work!

De La Rasphyxier

moi lolita

wonderful was my last word before I started typing this entrey. but lemme begin:

went downtown to have a meal at mecces. who cares that I've got enough food here...i was just bored.
wanted to buy new razors and powder, but I hadn't enough money for the razor's so I just decided to be fine with the powder.
when I wanted to pay, the guy told me a different price. I said I didnt have that much money and turned to leave the market, be he shouted "just wait a sec, I'll let someone check it"
everybody heard it and everybody was watching. I got so pissed at that idiot. he made me run behind another woman who let me wait several minutes before she came to check the price again. I stood there like a complete idiot, and of course I had already seen that the real price tag wasn't exactly placed under the product, so I misunderstood it.
but that stupid market wanted to proove how good it cares for its customers, made me wait, stand around with nothing to and after all it was even more embarrassing coz I didnt have enough money with me for some 4€ cosmetics...

But since I've already decided never to buy make up at Müller's again....I gotta buy it somewhere, so I guess I'll stick with DM....

In the end I walked out of the market with never razors nor powder but evil intentions towards the vendor.

uh.

luife

no eierschaukeln today, I gotta work!

showering. feeding my animals. ripping my clothes. getting dressed. cemetery....uh....mino forest! :D

God people I turned 58....was it already 58? I don't know anmore!



my twink Vermeill collecting flowers at midnight... but shht, didn't tell anyone, he's a Rogwel! I just wanna see the other side of DIM, ya know.

davidoff

Day 3 of me being all on my own and I'm nearly starving.
due to my lazyness in cooking I went to the supermarket and bought some fastfood instead stuff....which demanded way more effort, getting dressed, walking, meeting people, spending money....but as I said I was too lazy to cook a tomatoe sauce.

Guess I won't make it to 60 before Sunday....but surely 58^^

yeah...enjoy yourselves, my meal is burning.