all hallow's eve

yeah! its halloween! the second best party in the year!

I'll get dressed now (what shall I wear?), eat sth (I just got up ^.^) and then go to work. after that, i'll have a meeting with Rena and then we'll go to the dancing school for a party. At night, we'll sit down at fiddler's Green and the go to her place to watch movies all night long.

IT's the fucking best day in the year! (And I slept half of it...)

Unfortunately, may granny is really really not doing good. It's just some more days, then it's all over. If that is the case today, I must not go to the party...
I may sound rude, but I will go, no matter what happens.

If I die one day, I want all my friends to party their ass off and have some drinks for me, too. But no beer, just wine.

sickness

I'm ill. its my own fault...

dim scene

sometimes I wonder if I just liek to be depressive...or if this world really makes me depressive.

america's next topmodel 3

you know, I really dont like these stupid blonde bitchy american's who spend their time with fighting about shoes.
but Kim.....Kim is hot!

once again

once again i have to say that my parents dont accept me.

The dont accept my clothes, my music, my opinion, my character, my friends, my hobbies, my school work, my fantasy, my hopes, my dreams, and it wouldnt surprise me if they told me they dont accept my sexuality.

my mother says I hurt her soul with my being.

my father hits the table and says "get out."

I have no one to trust here.

They all believe I wanna prove something to others with my being.
It doesnt come to their mind that I dont wanna prove something but that I wanna be something.
For me.

I have nothing to do here anymore.

king's cross

after a long time I'm playing sims 3 again. its fun~
my english presentation today was a desaster, just ebcause of my team partner...she was just too stupid to do the whole thing as it was planned. whatever, I'll have a good mark anyways.

listening to Bugaboo. its such a eroctic song~

and I finally have a cross earring! it may not be perfect, but it looks stunning. not that I would give a fuck about church or religion...

gone

I miss you babe.
I miss you so much.....

I gotta work a lot.
I dont want to...