akuro no oka

beautiful live song by Dir en Grey.

people are trying to pull me down, to kill, me exhausting me, supressing me with words, acts, happenings, thoughts.
And I cant fight back.
I always thought it would be enough to be self-confident.

But all my self-confident is not worth anything because no one notices it.

You need self-confident and authority to survive. Second is what I dont have. And I dont know how to gain it.

I feel worthless because of that.

What can you do against people calling you a racist and a fascist and a whore and a liar?
Nothing. They'll never believe you.
This is how they steal your authority. And if they also get my self-confidence, I'm done.

It hurts being so breakable.