there and back again

so I returned and arrived here yesterday night. I won't say I'm home again, coz right it doesnt feel like my home.
fo one week, my home and my everyday-life was my beloved, and now returning to a everyday-life without her is pretty hard.
this morning I woke up, eyes still closed and half asleep, knowing that I will be alone in a different room when i open my eyes. as I did, it didnt come unexspected so it wasnt that hard.
at least there's snow here.