inner thoughts.

I really feel like I need a time-out.
I didnt do anything productive the last days, just work and wait for things to come that didnt happen.

I need a cig and wine now. I cant even go out and have fun with my friends drinking coz every action reminds me of her.
maybe it's just meant to be like that. guess it's forbidden to think of something else for a second.^^

I met my exboyfriend again - he's always there when there's music and beer! it was great to see him. he made me so many compliments along with other people we met, so I was really happy. I sometimes need that. Often.
I forced him to make out with his friend and he did so. I always get what I want, hehe.

I'm leaving in about half an hour.

I fucking hate silence.