and my live just sucks. I suck, my effort sucks, work sucks, people around me suck.
maybe I should try drinking myself into a coma, at least I wouldn't have to care about anything anymore.

why can't I have people around me supporting me or cheering me up or just being nice to me when I need it the most? why do I get slaps in the face over and over when I'm already completely devastated? is it so funny to see me breaking down?